My week in Puerto Vallarta!

I have had an amazing week thus far.In Puerto Vallarta.....
I got here wednesday around 4 and my sweet Uncle Julio picked us up...us being my Mama and Little Sis Heaven.....

Ok get this.....11 suitcases for 2 grown women and an 8 year old child......my gosh we were a spectacle to see...we were attaching suitcases to other suitcases and gosh i was feeling crazy!Well we finally got picked up and this nice elderly suitcase carrier man helped us with our ABSURD baggage...THANK YOU!!!!
We gave that man 10 dollars for his services....he totally deserved it...
I finally got to see my Godmothers new salon its called MC Chic Hair Salon. beautiful.and truly.

That day I caught up with my cousin and went to eat Tacos.....finally....they were amazing.

Thursday I woke up a bit late ...by that time my FAVORITE uncle..Tio Chuy picked us up and went to the beach alllllllllll day.Wow.I forget how beautiful and serene the beach is.And how great it is to eat shrimp by the beach......I will talk to everyone soooooon Besos y abrazos a todos!!!

Life is changing...

It is changing and though it is inevitable and change is part of life I find myself missing the simple days of my childhood.I don't know why lately I have felt so sad and I finally understand the concept of feeling a chip on your shoulder and all i can do to calm myself is cry that river that has build so high in my heart that is to its breaking point. Sometimes it's all I can do to keep my heart above water.....screw keep your head over water it feels that all i can keep above water is my heart.I don't understand myself much less those around me and I wish I could.Moments of clarity and lucidity come to my mind and I am able to function like a normal 24 year old woman and then I feel that asphyxiation that I have learned to live with. I greet it like an old enemy that is always present in my life and race myself for the new emotion it will inevitably evoke of me. I am not one for dramatics I am clear, blunt and candid about who I am and what I stand for but lately this immense sadness has enveloped me and I can't shake it.

Welcome 2009 ...goodbye 2008!!!!!

Soooooooo....I can't believe it ...it's 2009 January 1, 2009...Wow...still wrapping my head around that one....

My New Year resolution is:

Walk 2 miles a day.

Make Linoleum prints all of January.

Learn to do something i've never done before.

LAUGH EVERY DAY BUT SERIOUSLY LAUGH.

Be happy...not just content but happy.

I have been blessed this past year abolutely blessed.

I have a group of amazing people that circle me and make me feel like I can do so much..

My Mama has been a force to be reckoned with and I love her she's my ally and a woman who will always have the most love for me.I will always be the same to her...I am my mothers daughter, after all.

My Dad oh gosh we will always have our differences but I've come to understand that if you love someone all you can do is understand and forgive.

This was Dads birthday at a Mariachi restaurant ...Lord I acted like a fool...a room full of Mexican men that can sing and wear form fitting clothes and I lose my composure...hahaha!

I love my friends!My Best Friends have been the greatest...always supporting my crazy antics and ideas and aspirations....I thank those who came to the art ahow at Division 9....

My bosses came and supported and my best friends and my close friends and I felt so accomplished that day...

it's like everything you've gone through isn't in vain....You can put all that hurt out there and people respond and want to buy your art........... NOW that was awesome!!!

My art history teacher who I adored came...it's funny how I always get these amazing women in my life....never fails it can be an English class (Dr. P!) or my art classes and it always happens I end up with great women!

People walking the scene!!!!

At TIO'S TACOS after a night of art Jessie Aren, Meli, Eugene, Dezi, Sims and mia and of course me!

Friends........

Jessie my sister best friend always....

My smeli MELI!

And everyone in between you guys made this year beautiful....beautiful ...oh yeah one more thing I am also gonna try and maintain this blog.....weekly and if I can every two or three days....so many thoughts to share so little time ...I need a fucking laptop...hahahaha..oh yeah and less swearing!PAZ Y AMOR!!!

Un poema

My skin feels uncomfortable...
I don't feel like it is the day to breathe.
I can't breathe sometimes as if not only did you rob me from love but my air as well.
Love what mindboggling word...
It has the power to tear you down...
build you up....
break you..
make you....
and worst of all alter you.
Your perception shall never be the same, it will be clouded by those extremes that love....
oh love always hands.

So......

Today was interesting to say the least...

I went to work...but I got up with the worst migraine known to mankind!!!

But I am a whiz at putting up a facade through pain...sad but true...

So I'm teaching my kinder class the joys of english...break...I ask the nurse, "Is it ok if a lie down on the cot? I have a headache"...The teacher from the class I was just in (I love her she's a hippy lady that is wonderful and is an absolute angel!) was so worried and just was beside herself feeling so bad that she didn't catch on to my migraine...many wouldn't unless you know me hence the facade.....so the nurse says....

Sure..Everyone is Über nice and accomodating and the principle says,"Cynthia we want you to go hope and rest..."

This is the best job to say the least...Everyone is older.Mature.I talk about my life goals.These teachers are what I wanna be in 2 years.

Thank god for change.

I can't believe ever being at these other jobs that caused so much grief.....backstabbing girls and people that couldn't come up to me to verify the truth....It feels so good to be rid of dumb people.

After all the crap...here I am stronger... for adversity makes me better and just looking at the fruits of my labor (and pain)...

and I feel blessed....

happy and just looking forward to this amazing life that I build with Gods help.

The picture is from my trip to Venice with Meli .....in the car

with my Nerd glasses on acting a fool.

Today has been quite interesting.....

Oh lord....

I run around this crazy town and at times I feel like I have no room to breathe... my space is so scarce that I drown at times....

So many thank you's to the Beautiful Dr. Patricia Ploesch...because she unknowingly introduced me to this blogging world that I so desperately needed ..I journal daily....many forms of release,

but putting my thoughts in this cyber world feels like a form of catharsis ...freeing release.

I started the mural that will take up the whole Cafeteria wall outside of Arizona Middle school and well I feel spent up,

but good.....

It is this beautiful regal Apache named Geronimo and this beautiful symbolism that they seemed to repeat on their leather and clothes.I'll put up a picture soon enough for all to see.

I find myself still feeling the repercussion of a life before and well who does that?

I do.

I find myself wanting to say all those things I should have said and owning up to all the mistakes...

I wish I could take back but know that in the end I am better off with my lessons and mistakes for love is great .....but knowledge is infinite.I used to think love was infinite.......

Maybe with the right one.Maybe it is.

It's fucking Lauryn Hill she always makes me feel it deep in my soul....mix it with a little Bob and you got my hurt all up in your face.

The picture above is from my garden...enjoy the rays of light.

paz y amor.